Archive for July, 2008

Me Circa 2001

| July 11th, 2008

The depths I feel in the ever moment of every word written, spoken and thought. The Black melancholy of my condition pass over me like death’s shadow, as I write. What little hope I have of writing from my soul has faded as I find myself consumed by doubt. Each word is wrung slowly, painfully from my weary soul. The gravity of my sin weighs upon me as a drift into the recesses of whatever remains of my peace.

Whatever will be said about me, one question shall be inevitably asked; What has become of such potential? My future critics will not be sated by the mere fact that I have slipped into mediocrity of of my times; moncler outlet polo 2 have succumbed to the stresses and lackadaisical nature/ of my peers, and forced, with tortured eyes to watch the decadence and apathy seep into the fabric of our common society. Yet, the flame of life pulls me from the depths of words, the traps of thought to ascend to hope.

My inspiration never comes, though I wait for it, and yet, still I wait. The season’s change, the tree grows a minuscule taller, michael kors c 1002 c 905 and I wait, and, in waiting, I discover that I journey as well. I seek to understand what I, with a pittance of talent and a dearth of desire, can never be. I seek to know the inspired and quantify the intangible.

All art is arrogance, in that it is a measure of the artist’s will enforced upon the partaker. There is no objectivity in beauty and ugliness, good and evil, michael kors ava kors ankle boots sin and grace, reality and fantasy; all paths are the artists and the partaker is merely a weary taveler, trying to encapsulate a landscape that cannot be captured.

I have sat and waited for my world to come to me, and circumspectly walked in the worlds of others, and find that my journey, and my wait are both incomplete.

The Idiot

U.S.S Indianapolis (JAWS)

| July 11th, 2008

Japanese submarine slammed two torpedoes into our side, chief. It was
comin’ back, from the island of Tinian Delady, just delivered the bomb. The
Hiroshima bomb. Eleven hundred men went into the water. Vessel went down in
twelve minutes. Didn’t see the first shark for about a half an hour. Tiger.
Thirteen footer. You know, you know that when you’re in the water, chief? You
tell by lookin’ from the dorsal to the tail. Well, we didn’t know. `Cause our
bomb mission had been so secret, no distress signal had been sent. Huh huh.
They didn’t even list us overdue for a week. ugg outlet gunwharf grove city Very first light, chief. The
sharks come cruisin’. So we formed ourselves into tight groups. You know
it’s… kinda like `ol squares in battle like a, you see on a calendar, like
the battle of Waterloo. And the idea was, the shark nearest man and then he’d
start poundin’ and hollerin’ and screamin’ and sometimes the shark would go
away. Sometimes he wouldn’t go away. Sometimes that shark, he looks right
into you. Right into your eyes. You know the thing about a shark, he’s got…
lifeless eyes, moncler a firenze palermo black eyes, like a doll’s eye. When he comes at ya, doesn’t
seem to be livin’. Until he bites ya and those black eyes roll over white.
And then, ah then you hear that terrible high pitch screamin’ and the ocean
turns red and spite of all the poundin’ and the hollerin’ they all come in
and rip you to pieces. Y’know by the end of that first dawn, lost a hundred
men! I don’t know how many sharks, maybe a thousand! I don’t know how many
men, they averaged six an hour. On Thursday mornin’ chief, I bumped into a
friend of mine, Herbie Robinson from Cleveland. Baseball player, bosom’s
mate. I thought he was asleep, reached over to wake him up. Bobbed up and
down in the water, nfl jerseys falcons fanatics just like a kinda top. Up ended. Well… he’d been bitten
in half below the waist. Noon the fifth day, Mr. Hooper, a Lockheed Ventura
saw us, he swung in low and he saw us. He’d a young pilot, a lot younger than
Mr. Hooper, anyway he saw us and come in low. And three hours later a big fat
PBY comes down and start to pick us up. You know that was the time I was most
frightened? Waitin’ for my turn. I’ll never put on a lifejacket again. So,
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